A dream dua answered
Date: 9 April, 2023
Location: Makkah al-Mukkaramah
“To be in the land where the Quran was revealed, where the prophet ﷺ walked, lived, and loved. To visit the masjid. To do tawaf around the Ka’bah. To see the Ka’bah. To see the mountains surrounding us…
To stand in prayer with the Ka’bah in front of me. To listen to my favorite qari’s and grow even more in love with the Quran (more than I ever thought was possible!).
A L H A M D U L I L A H.
That is all I can say, but my praises will never be enough. This is a grace from Allah, and I can never repay. We can never pay anything back, but even the thought itself is a testament to how blessed we are. How Generous Allah ﷻ is, that He provides for us day and night, without restraint nor request. All praise belongs to Allah.
The past week in Makkah has been a lot. Overwhelming, distracting, busy, beautiful and incredible. I wouldn’t change a thing. Of course, it is Ramadan and it feels like all the Muslims have gathered to worship Allah. My favorite people have been the Malaysian and Indonesian women I have had the honor of meeting. May Allah preserve them and increase them in good.
One particular woman is Aunty Ramla, we exchanged numbers and even took a photo together. We first met in Madinah, and I hope to see her soon and gift her something before she leaves on the 12th. Maybe I’ll meet her again one day in Malaysia, or even better, Jannah In shaa Allah.
I must remember her in my duas…
Who would have thought this day last year, we would be here? In Ramadan? A dream come true, a dua answered… Alhamdulilah. I can’t believe I am walking in my dream dua. It still doesn’t feel real, but all I can do is embrace this blessing.
My eyes have opened to so much. Especially to how insignificant I am. [How the officers have treated us has been humbling haha, we are a bunch of nobodies…how did I ever think I was anything else? Grateful to be humbled.]
We are all slaves of Allah, and through a personal invitation, we are here, to worship Him, to seek nearness and forgiveness. That is what we have in common. This is also what makes us different. Our standing with Allah…
Seeing everyone in the same place, yet seeing people outwork me has been greatly humbling. We always hear the phrase “We have the same 24 hours” but I keep seeing this!! Sat in the haram waiting for Fajr, the people are separated. To some like myself, it is a break. To pause. To others, every moment is significant, and all they do is swap acts of worship. Allahu Akbar. May Allah accept it from them.
May Allah grant us tawfeeq (ability) to do better. Ameen.
Alhamdulilah, this has been the best experience of my life. My favorite place on Earth. I cannot wait to return in shaa Allah…”
End of journal entry.
